[quote] But I never felt ugly until I realized that I had become invisible to the world and especially, after trying to seduce my ex-boyfriend, I saw the look of disgust on his face when he thought I wasn't looking. It's the emotional thing that really makes it sting.

[quote]R38 I wanna read more about this @ [R38]

[quote]R84 The post that said his ex made a vomit face after he tried to seduce him is fucking hilarious

Okay, here goes. Looking back, I was a pretty good-looking teenager, although I never though so because of the constant pimples. And I grew into a pretty good-looking young man, judging from photos, although I didn't think so at the time.

My ex-boyfriend and I got together in our early 20s, and he's still the love of my life, even though we've been separated longer than we were together. I just figured we'd age together and accept how we both age. The truth is, I've aged more than he has, put on more weight. He still always wants a hug when he stops by, and he gives me a quick kiss on the lips, and lets me kiss his neck a bit before leaving (he always smells wonderful).

Long ago, after our initial separation, we'd still make out a bit every now and then, but no full-on sex. Maybe a little under-the-shirt action, kissing and (clothed) frottage. That particular time, he had been letting my suck his nips, and I could see how hard he had gotten. Then an abrupt, "M, we have to stop" and he drew away. It was so quick, that I sort of stared ahead for a few seconds, then turned around, to see him rolling his eyes and sighing loudly with his tongue sticking out. That was the end, for me, of ever pretending we'd reconnect in that way. In the past few years, he's actually dropped hints about marriage, but I've moved beyond. Like I said, I love him, but that incident left a permanent scar.